My husband and I have been married 30 years with a healthy sex life. But 3 months ago he began with the mobile porn sites from his phone, to the house PC and has since joined a lot of dating sites and casual sex sites. He has always been a great lover and we have had what I thought was awesome sex. We experiment, etc…I am no prude. I was blindsided when I saw his email account. His profiles had him SEPARATED LOOKING FOR FWB, NSA, FOR DISCREET RELATIONSHIP. Far worse was the desperation in his communications with the women he admired. Messaging them from work or home when I was not there.
I have read his profiles and conversations and I am lost. I told him I knew. He states he “got caught up” but I believe he would have gone through with the hook ups if he had any takers. Needless to say, I am devastated, my self-esteem shot. I have tried to give him the best sex of his life, started dressing more sexy, even have a brazillian, but I am 48. Can I really compete with the other women out there? Is my marriage over? Does he really want all those things I already give to him from someone else?