I am fifteen years old. I accidentally discovered how good it feels to rub my penis when I was 3 years old in the bath tub.
I showed my mom right away with excitement. “Look how good this feels!” I said. But my mom shoved my hands away and said that its best not to do that right now. I asked her why. She said that the penis is a private part and we dont show it to anyone or play with it in front of anyone. She said if I want to play with my penis I should be alone in my bedroom or in the bathroom but not when she is watching me because she didn’t want to see me.
Even though she said it nicely like that, I still thought I did something bad, yet at bedtime I had to play with my penis some more (which is the name my 3 year old brain came up with for this.)
So at bedtime, I pulled my blanket up tight around my whole body in case someone would walk in and see me. Then I pulled my pajama bottoms and underwear down to my knees. Then I started playing around. I loved the feelings I would get from my soft rubbing and gentle carresses of my penis. My left hand would concentrate on rubbing the foreskin and tip of my penis, while my right hand would concentrate on the lower shaft. Pretty soon, I started doing this nearly every night before sleeping and at nap time.
Here is the thing. I didnt have an erection when I was 3 years old discovering masturbation. I did get erections all my life even at that age although I didnt know what they were at the time. In fact erections confused me and scared me back then. I had no idea why periodically my penis would grow and point outwards. And it was uncomfortable.
Anyways, since I discovered masturbating without having them, I never associated masturbation with erections.
Of course by now I have learned how to masturbate with one, but to be honest I prefer to go without. Just feels more normal to me.
But it seems like all of the sex ed out there teaches that boys have an erection before masturbating. And that many older people who have difficulty getting one take pills for that.
So my question is is it okay what I am doing? Do other guys also masturbate without erections? It seems like what I do is foreign to everyone else.
Now a second question on a slightly different topic about little boys and their penises.
Shortly after I discovered masturbation when I was 3, I started to notice especially in public changerooms how many other boys do play with their penises. I guess their moms never told them what my mom told me, haha. Many boys at that age of 2,3, and 4, I noticed started grabbing and holding onto their penises as soon as their clothes would come off. Sometimes it continued after their swim trunks were on by either putting their hand inside their trunks, or even tugging their penises from the outside.
Anyways, this has been a constant theme for me. I still see young kids doing this. When I was 6, my 4 year old neighbor was often seen tugging his penis while standing or walking. He would hold the tip or the head of his penis between one thumb and one finger and constantly squeeze it.
Then when I was 8, I saw a different kid doing that a lot at school while passing him down the halls.
I would secretly try to mimick that activity on my own in secret. I would lock my bedroom door, stand up, put my thumb and finger around the tip of my penis and start squeezing. Except that I dont feel anything at all when I do that.
And then when I was 12, I first saw my 2 year old cousin doing this exact same thing. When he was 3 and 4 he started doing it a lot. His mom would oftem whisper to him “hands off of your penis” and he would smile and stop only to go back at it 2 minutes later. Now he is 5 and I dont see him doing that too much anymore.
But my question is what are these boys doing? Is this penis holding, penis tugging, and penis squeezing a form of masturbation? They seem to be enjoying it and keep on doing it over and over. Yet how come if I am standing up, I could never replicate that. I think it would be neat to feel all sorts of stuff just by holding and squeezing the tip of my penis while standing up. But it doesnt look like that will happen anytime soon. I seem to only feel pleasure by actual rubbing. But it drives me crazy. I try at least a few times a week to feel some pleasure by simply squeezing the tip of my penis but it doesnt work. Yet it seems to work with these kids that i have seen.