I’ve got Cerebral Palsy, Hydrocephalus, Dyspraxia and Asperger’s. Which basically means I look odd. And it’s also meant a life virtually totally bereft of female companionship in the bedroom (Though I HAVE asked 7 ladies to marry me because I thought they were in love with me like I was with them, Asperger’s alert, they hit the hills the moment I asked!)
So I’m 54 now and just met a woman who’s mentally handicapped like me – doesn’t mean either of us are ‘stoopid’ or ‘cant learn’ like we keep being told. And I can’t get it up. And I’m kinda feeling suicidal over it – would you believe I’ve read up on the Peaceful Pill Handbook before finding your site by chance – because she’s stunning and I don’t want to lose her by telling her.
I thought it was just cos I was 54, but I keep reading I should be able to get it up till I’m 70. If she gets pregnant I’m fine about having a kid, I can handle having one, please believe that. I’d also just love to know what having sex feels like! Why wasn’t I having sex earlier in life? Because all the ladies were telling me how ugly/deformed/even ‘diseased’ I was, the males were beating up on me more than saying anything, and I flat didn’t get the chance. I really tried.
I really, really don’t want to go through the rest of my life as much a failure to Lucinda as I have been in everything else to everyone else. If you think that’s all I can be, tell me and I’ll go away. I’ve tried sex clinics but they’ve been no good. If you’ve got any ideas, tell me and I’ll try them. Even if only for awhile, I just don’t want Lucinda to hit the hills too!