My husband and I have always had an active sex life. Then a few months ago, I noticed he didn’t really show much interest in fucking anymore. He made excuses like he’s tired or stressed, and even said he just doesn’t think about sex much anymore. Then I discovered he was watching porn regularly. This is not a big issue as we have always enjoyed porn together. I asked him how often and he told me 2 or 3 times a week. In actuality it was 5 to 8 times a day. If he did actually try to have sex, he could not really get a full erection. Then I caught him hugging a younger woman at work and was told by his friend that they are always talking and hugging. I don’t think he cheated or even that he would cheat. But this girl has the same body type and looks as the repeat searches in his porn history. Now I can’t seem to stop hating myself. I don’t look like these women. I’m not ugly. I feel unattractive but definitely not unfuckable if you’ll pardon the word. But I feel like I can never be what he wants. Literally. Even with surgery or diet or meds, I could never be like these women he prefers to see naked. Whenever I see a woman with those attributes, I hate myself. Of course my husband says I’m being silly. He wears he’s attracted to me. But still no full erection or even a quarter of the attention I used to get. If he flirts or makes a sexy comment to me I feel like he is forcing it. It feels fake. I feel like my life as I knew it is gone. I hate myself and my husband thinks I’m going nuts because after 15 years I suddenly let porn bother me. It truly never has. We have been swingers in the past. I’m not that person anymore. But I feel like we have lost something in our relationship. Any hope? Or should I just accept that he doesn’t get aroused by me anymore?
He loves porn but won’t fuck me
