In my community, we do not have sex with a partner until we get married. I’m single and have compulsive masturbating challenges, and I want to know if it is safe to edge till my bladder is full, and not let it come out, that much liquid. Also, why do I feel the need to orgasm and ejaculate? I do not enjoy the massage part of masturbation- only if I feel intense pressure and orgasmic release. Can you please clarify this for me?